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I dunno…

Friday, September 12th, 2008

I dunno nothing that I haven’t been taught.
I dunno why I was born into the family I’ve got.
I dunno if I ever had an original thought,
maybe not, maybe soon, maybe later, I dunno.
I dunno how I can end a prayer, then turn on a friend.
I dunno what I was thinking when I just pressed send.
I dunno why I still criticize the things I dunno.

I dunno what goes down the moment we die.
Do we get halos and harps? Do we sleep? Do we fly?
I dunno how, when and why this world will finally end.
Speculation’s gonna grow, who knows best, I dunno.
I dunno if I should push ahead or stop and grieve.
I lie awake and wonder how to make people believe.

I dunno when to walk away or stand and fight.
Just when I’ve got it wrong, I’m sure I heard You right.
When my arguments are watertight,
You expose every hole with a flash and a flood.
I hear You call in the eye of the storm.
I know You’ve had my back since the day I was born.
Still stoking my heart, still stirring my head.
You’re my pillar of fire, You’re the wine, You’re the bread.

Without your love, I’m just a broken machine.
Without your love, it’s all a mindless routine.
Without your love, I’m in another free fall.
Without your love, I’ve got nothing at all.
Without your love, I’m not a full human being.

If I should ever leave, where would I go?
I look to You because You’re the lover of my soul.
I know my grip is better when I’m not hanging on.
I dunno when I’ve got it right or wrong,
but this one thing I know…

Your love is better than life.

The lyrics of a song by Newsboys. Slight edits to better fit here. Well, it’s the one thing I claim to know for sure.

It only confirms my suspicions…

Sunday, August 31st, 2008

It has already become standard now, to post here once a month, on the last day aswell, and have a song as a theme. Don’t know if it’s a good thing, but I’ll keep doing it that way for now. Might increase the frequency, but I would only it if I have anything to say really. Should be able to come up with something once a month you’d think.

Anyways, I have to admit the last post might have ended in a rather melancholy way. Calling myself a hypocrite, failure, liar and wishing for death might not be the most cheerful or uplifting thing to do. But I’m merely stating facts, we are all sinners, including me. Atleast I believe that is one of the fundamental truths the bible teaches. It is after all a book where most of the characters are either hypocrites, failures, liars, or loosers. As Five Iron Frenzy puts it in “Far Far away”.

Peter was a liar, a traitor just like me,
and Judas was a hypocrite, and Paul a Pharisee.

In a way I feel I touched on the subject in my first post, in the way I explained the whole “In spite of me…” thing. Anyways, back to the DC Talk song. If you hadn’t guessed it already, I was thinking of “In the Light”. Especially two lines from the first verse.

This only serves to confirm my suspicions,
that I’m still a man in need of a Saviour.

I guess I could write alot about this, but there isn’t really much flowing out of me at the moment. As everything I am trying to say is contained within the prayer of the tax collector, in its simple and wonderful form, I will just post it instead of attempting to write an essay. Maybe the essay will come someday. Luke 18:13

God, have mercy on me, a sinner.

And what wonderful mercy He has shown me, and what a awesome Saviour I know in Jesus…

So I made a blog…

Saturday, May 31st, 2008

This is my little silly attempt at a blog. The idea here is that I will use this as a place where I write some of the deeper thoughts regarding religious matters that actually does pass through the grey matter in my head occasionally. Hopefully this will be a more constructive and valuable contribution to the messy interwebs than my previous array of webpages and forums I’ve been active in creating.

I’ve decided to write in english. Even though it is not my native tongue. In this day and age of globalization and connectivity across even the mightiest oceans, I ask if I could I have any other options!? I think everyone who will care about this blog will still be able to understand it, and to my swedish ears, the title “In spite of me…” sounds way cooler in english, and if I have an english title, I might aswell do everything in the same language. Consistency is important.

The title then. The prhase “In spite of” according to Meriam-Webster:

in spite of : in defiance or contempt of : without being prevented by

As with many other ideas and thoughts I get, which you probably will notice if you stay around here, I stole this from the lyrics of a song. Plankeye, in a song titled Whisper to me, sings:

Isn’t it great how You work in spite of me?

The meaning I draw from it, and the thing I wish to have as some sort of theme here perhaps, is that in spite of me, my failures, mistakes, missinterpritations, outright errors, weaknesses, wrongdoings, sin and worthlessness, God keeps working. He is not prevented by them or me, and when necessary, he does his work even in defiance of me and sometimes even through those things. As I see it, this is a source of relief and joy. It is not dependant on me. It’s not by my power or strength. It is all just grace. It’s all just God.

The nice picture of a dandelion that has passed it’s prime and is now releasing it’s seeds, and the short description below the title, also came from a song. This one by Five Iron Frenzy. Another of my favorite bands. The song is called Dandelions, and to me what it proclaims is somewhat close to the theme. God sees flowers in these weeds, and works through them for his glory.

The image is, in my own very humble opinion, a very poethic and nice motif for the theme. The withering flower, scorned and disliked, brings and spreads about new life, not through its own making but by the power of the wind. Maybe?

I’ll throw in a bible verse to strengthen my choice of theme. Using the modern english “The Message” paraphrase, 2 Cor 4:7:

We carry this precious Message around in the unadorned clay pots of our ordinary lives. That’s to prevent anyone from confusing God’s incomparable power with us. As it is, there’s not much chance of that.

Well, who am I then? David is my name. I live in Linköping, Sweden. Currently working, but the plan is to educate myself some more this fall. I’ve applied to the theological program the university here runs. We’ll see where that leads.

I’m striving and struggling to find out what it means to live in accordance to the words and example of Jesus Christ, my saviour and God. Which to me means that I’m a non-violent, christ-archist, who try to live as simple a life as I can. More exact thoughts and ponderations regarding these subject will no doubt come. I can’t write everything I have to say in my first post now can I?

How was that for a first attempt?